A Weight Loss Journey

I'm sooo tired

Definitions of intervention on the Web:

• the act of intervening (as to mediate a dispute, etc.); “it occurs without human intervention”
• a  policy of intervening in the affairs of other countries
• interposition: the act or fact of interposing one thing between or among others
• (law) a proceeding that permits a person to enter into a lawsuit already in progress; admission of person not an original party to the suit so that person can protect some right or interest that is allegedly affected by the proceedings; “the purpose of intervention is to prevent unnecessary …
• treatment: care provided to improve a situation (especially medical procedures or applications that are intended to relieve illness or injury) 
  wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn

I need an intervention.

Now.

Every day for the last several weeks, I have felt like I am swirling deeper and deeper into a place I don’t want to be, the place I am desperately trying to avoid with my weight loss efforts, the place I need to escape from with my declarations of “I am getting healthy!”

Today feels like the last straw for me.  I feel angry and sad and frustrated.  I look swollen and crippled and old.  I believe I am doing this to myself as a consequence of my life style and daily decisions.  That may not be entirely true, but I believe it is, so . . .

First and foremost, my intervention requires a change of attitude on my part.  I need to look at myself as a physical system that wants to be healthy, not as a stubborn, belligerent middle-aged brat who can’t stay on a diet and exercise plan for more than 10 minutes at a time.  I need to give myself the gift of time . . . time to rest, time to plan, time to prepare, time to execute my plans.  I need to be kind to myself, as kind as I used to be to the rest of the world.  I will focus on the positives, small improvements in the way I look and feel.  I will remember:  progress, not perfection; age-appropriate expectations.

Maybe you need a break too.  If you are out there, and have thoughts to share, please do.